so i just tapped your shoulder
and i managed a sincere smile
i didn't want to hurt us both
so i just said, "goodbye".

Monday, March 12, 2007

Amazing India

Waiting for autorickshawIt has been quite a while since I updated my blog. I am currently in India so I thought it would be appropriate to post pictures of the place.

India is hodgepodge of culture and ethnic diversity. From people to food to language to religion - name it India has lots of it!

Facade of the Bangalore Museum

Thumbs up:Cubbon Park

1. The food - I couldn't get enough of spicy dishes
2. The color - look around and you will see a dazzling array of vivid colors in sarees, buildings, etc.
3. The fusion of modern culture and old traditions - India has truly preserved its unmistakable identity

I asked for purified water to be delivered to my apartment - here's what I got

Thumbs down:

1. Autorickshaw drivers who charge more than the meter
2. Loose hygienic practices in food preparation
3. Drivers from hell and the incessant blowing of horns

Saturday, July 29, 2006

do you still love me?

you knocked at the door
i opened it, and you said hi
you said you were sorry
then you asked, "do you still love me?"

as i thought for a while
i saw tears in your eyes
then my heart skipped a beat
at the realization -

i did not say, "no"
because that would be a lie;
i did not say, "yes"
because that would be unfair.

someone else loves me now
more than i love myself;
someone else takes care of me now
and blesses my day.

so i just tapped your shoulder
and i managed a sincere smile
i didn't want to hurt us both
so i just said, "goodbye".

Friday, March 17, 2006

on love and reciprocity

the person who truly loves
seeks not to be loved in return,
for true love is not founded on
the grounds of reciprocity.

happiness is a choice

the perfect day is in your thoughts
think happy and you will be
happiness does not end
with gloomy days and overcast skies

everyday is an opportunity
to feel really nice
you may feel blue, or feel so sad
nothing can stop you from feeling bad

but remember you have the choice
and you may choose to be happy
then you will see the sweetest smile
there in the mirror, look and see!

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Saturday Afternoon

Nothing is lovelier
Than seeing hues of orange and red
Amidst the pale blue sky;
But nothing is more romantic
Than watching this magic unfold
With you by my side.

looking for thy self?

the self
can never go missing
nor unled
it does not need
a path to tread
it need not
be found
as it never leaves
because
the self
is not something
that one seeks
the self
is something
that one creates

Friday, November 11, 2005

Coming Home

I just got back from a foreign assignment, which got extended for almost a year. I witnessed all four British seasons, yet none of them made any of my winter apparel easily dispensable. I had been looking forward to coming and staying home, and seeing my family, relatives and friends. They are the very people who always make parting a bit painful and coming home always something to look forward to. My excitement was almost difficult to bear when I learned that my fly home date was definite.

Finally I was on a flight bound for Manila. Looking down from the plane, Metro Manila glittered with thousand lights. For a moment I was oblivious to the heavy traffic and to the pollution that the metropolis was notorious for. When the plane touched down at the Ninoy Aquino International Airport, I was engulfed by a stronger sense of excitement. I was ecstatic at the prospect of seeing how the country had changed since I left.

Except for a cousin and few officemates, I practically told no one that I was coming home. As no one was there to pick me up, I had to take a cab. I was escorted out of the building by a security guard and he pointed me to a small office where I could arrange for my transfer. I was surprised to learn that the fare going to Makati was nearly half what it was several months before. What was more surprising was the absence of barkers who would coerce passengers to avail of their service. The staff explained that the President mandated the scheme. Not long ago, passengers arriving at the NAIA had to rent trolley carts for US$1 each. When Mrs. Arroyo stepped into office, she rightfully abolished the absurdity. I was impressed at the progressive developments that were obviously shaping the historic airport.

I was almost ready to be generous with my praises when suddenly the cab made an unexpected U-turn. The driver informed me that although arrangements were made from the office at the airport, payment had to be made from the cashier that services different cab operators. The cashier was located almost clandestinely near the flyover along the Sucat highway. I handed the payment to the cashier and I expected 125 pesos to be returned to me. As if miscalculating my payment, the cashier handed me only 120 pesos and hurriedly got back to her paper work. She was obviously just acting out to collect extra cash for herself. Regardless of the amount, I thought what she did was wrong and should not be tolerated. Therefore I demanded for the remaining amount and the cashier apologetically handed it to me asking, “kulang po pala, Sir?” I could only chuckle in disbelief. Take out the evil weed and you can bet that it grows quite quickly some place else.

As if sensing my disappointment, the driver started to talk about our political situation as he drove the cab. The topic did not serve much to uplift me, but my interest was roused by what the driver had to say. Just like everyone else, he was practically fed up with politicians advancing their individual causes, but mindless of the nation’s arrested development. His view embodies what seemed to me is the collective consciousness of today’s Pinoy. Indeed it is tiring to witness political showdowns day after day. The branches of the government have virtually turned into primetime soap operas with a powerhouse cast. The only obvious difference is that everyone seems to be the villain and a happy ending is nowhere in sight. I find it unfortunate that we have no one in the government that we can call a statesman. Everyone is just another distasteful politician. The likes of Jovito Salonga and Ninoy Aquino could very well make a difference these days.

The ride took faster than I expected. I soon found myself standing in front of my condominium. The humid air was familiar. The balut vendor at the other side of the street cursed as a car sped past him. From afar, the skyscrapers of Makati towered with pride like monuments to demigods.

I quickly said a prayer of thanksgiving for a safe journey. As I clutched my keys, it dawned on me – I am home, and things have pretty much remained the same.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

on letting go

the sinking sun changed the color of the horizon
what was blue was humbled by orange red
and before the colors could blend together
the inevitable darkness set itself afield

how fast time flies, i mused -
how fast time flies indeed
was it just yesterday we met and said hi
now it's time to part and say goodbye

i held you close and locked you in my arms
close to my chest you held your ear
i prayed that the night will remain endless
but a forlorn beat was all you can hear

soon the light of day was unmistakable
i had to weaken my embrace
to let you go was the only option
everything else was malaise

if only we must muster very few things
it is to live, to laugh, to learn,
to love: t'is we all can,
but to let go - makes one completely human

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Puerto Galera, October 2005

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I had fun with friends at Puerto Galera last weekend. Unlike the summer months, the place is not crowded this time of the year.