Wanting You

It hurts to want you each day
To watch you nearby
Yet far away
To watch you come and leave
Leaving me in constant pain.

When I long for you
The pain reenters me
And I can only be comforted
By your gentle touch
But once you bid farewell
The pain reenters with rage
Tearing me to pieces.

It hurts to want you each day
Like utopia that is never meant to happen
Only to be desired
To be cherished in the lonely alleys of my mind
It never fails to hurt me
As I want you each day
For each day you grow ever so desirable.

I would pawn my soul
For an ephemeral embrace
Only to appease this burning desire
And when you let go
I would pawn my soul again and again
As endless as temporal moments could be
So I can worship you for all eternity.